Today I had an epiphany and caught a glimpse of what was
on God's heart in saying "But rather seek ye the kingdom of God, and all
these things shall be added unto you" (Luke 12:31), " But seek ye
first the kingdom of God and His righteousness; and all these things shall be
added unto you (Matthew 6:33).
Over and over again, I have experienced with every fiber
of my being outstanding joy and satisfaction to the utmost in letting
"go" and letting "God" have my full attention in worship, devotion,
prayer or just simply in life. My conclusions have remained constant - "nothing"
can or will ever compare to the joy of "being" in His presence -
period! This means no list - no secret requests - no hidden agenda of what I
want, think or feel - but just "being" in His presence.
If I now know that truly seeking His face and not His
hand bears an incomparable fruit of satisfaction, why do I allow myself to ever
entertain an understated state of ingratitude? Was His "free" gift of
salvation not enough? Is knowing that as my father, He is responsible for and
intimately acquainted with all of my needs not enough to
invoke a trust that need not be shaken?
And I say unto you, "Ask and it shall be given you;"
(Luke 11:9) and "Even when you ask, you don't get it because your motives
are all wrong--you want only what will give you pleasure" (James 4:3). It
is crystal clear - asking God comes with the territory and privilege of holding
the title "child of God," but when I'm "not asking" or
"not asking correctly" or "my asking altogether trumps my desire
to seek first His kingdom and His righteousness" - something's off
balance.
Our father who art in heaven - we invite a greater
portion of your character, heart and purpose into existence
today. Give us this day our daily bread - the mind of
Christ to know what, when and how to ask for every material and spiritual need. And forgive us our sins as we also forgive others - including ourselves. And lead us not into temptation - for we know that your conviction brings
life and so we desire to be constantly convicted, challenged and changed by you. For thine is the kingdom, power and glory - we acknowledge that all we really
need is You and we are desperate for all you have to reveal of yourself to us. Forever and ever Amen. (Matthew 6:9-13)
Pray: Falling in love with your heart and drawing close to you by
the power of your Holy Spirit living within me day-by-day O Lord, is my daily
bread and with each portion you freely give - I am eternally grateful and satisfied.